flow of feelings and thoughts

The only person I thought I could count on and would have beside me my whole life, is the only person who doesn’t know almost anything about me today. The sad thing is I still feel heartbroken enough to write it here in English because that way it feels less harsh and realistic. It’s been about 8 years since I realized this little fact and thankfully, met people who have been there for me more than she has ever been. I just wish she can meet decent people she can truly trust too.